Our Infinite and Inevitable Ends

thank you to NetGalley for an ARC of this book in exchange for a review. "our infinite and inevitable ends" is a brain melting spiral into the consequences of perfectionism and compounding guilt. following the fall out of yana's death and the explosion of the TempCog building, cas chases a never ending thread of infinite realities to solve yana's death, clear her name, and save earth—if she can. stuck between visions of a life she's never lived, a cop desperate to close the case, and yana's maybe-ex-lover, cas struggles to reconcile what all she's left behind for good. this book does many things well and above all else, the grace with which it depicts the often messy reality of loving another person and living on a dying planet is exceptional. lost somewhere between hope for the future and grief for the past, "our infinite and inevitable ends" asks the reader to take a leap of faith. the bone-deep sorrow the characters feel and express was so candid that i found it impossible to not be sucked in to their descent. the surrealist imagery of overlapping timelines, drug addled crash outs, and whispers from the past all coalesce into a downward spiral that cas goes on head first. it was an absolute delight to read and was addictive from the start with one of the most solid opening chapters i've ever read. thank you so much to NetGalley and A. D. Sui.